Four years in the Navy, then twenty-five years leading IT teams in high-pressure environments. From the outside, I had it handled. Inside was chronic stress, sleepless nights, a back that ached, and one sentence I never questioned: I have to handle this. I never realized the weight of the world was not mine to carry.
The turning point was not mine. It was my daughter's. When she developed chronic pain (fibromyalgia) at age 18, I went looking for something that would actually reach her, not just manage symptoms. That search took me deep into the subconscious, where beliefs, paradigms, and patterns are really held. Watching her pain dissolve when the belief underneath her changed, I understood what I had missed for thirty years.
You put the rocks there too. Not on purpose. You were young. Your subconscious did what it did to protect you. It formed beliefs, subconscious decisions. What I have learned is that you decided then, you can decide differently now.